So, I've kind of been casually seeing someone over the past few weeks. Was seeing someone, rather. I don't think it will continue, and it's kind of just fading away instead of burning out. (No, I seriously doubt she knows about this site... I have doubts that she even knows what my last name is.)
She was fun to hang out with and all, but there were small things nagging at me that I kind of overlooked because I was having fun. Then one night recently, we were having a conversation about a topic that she claimed to be very well-versed on and she knew I was pretty familiar with it too, and she started giving me information that I knew wasn't true. In fact, the correct information was literally right in front of her, and yet she didn't even realize it. That's when it kind of really started to irritate me.
She was breaking a cardinal rule. She was being a bit of a poser. And it turned me off to a point where whenever I talked to her since that conversation, it was niggling in the back of my head.
I've kind of been ducking her calls recently -- to my defense, she tends to call very late at night when I'm already asleep and has woken me up more than a few times, and it's damn-nigh impossible for me to be coherent when I'm asleep. I guess I'm either waiting for her to get the picture that the ride is over or for us to actually connect and I have to break it off myself.
Am I being shallow? Perhaps. Am I expecting too much from someone who's spent much more time than me in this land of image and effervescence? Maybe. But if there's one thing that I always want out of a relationship, it's a sense of trust that the other person is being real with me.